Thoughts on Melissa's Mind

So I found my theme song. It describes me perfectly, except that she's 17. Here it is:



Jon McLaughlin Beautiful Disaster Lyrics

She loves her mama's lemonade
And hates the sound that goodbye's make
She prays one day she'll find someone to need her

She swears that there's no difference
Between the lies and compliments
It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough
The pictures that she sees make her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's given boys what they want
And tries to act nonchalant
Afraid they'll see that she's lost her direction

She never stays the same for long
Assuming that she'll get it wrong
Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen
She doesn't want to feel this way
Only 17 but tired

She would change everything, for happy ever after
Caught in the in-bewteen a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is but no one's told her that's okay

She would change everything, everything, just ask her
Caught in the in-between a beautiful disaster

She would change everything, for happy ever after
Caught in the in-bewteen a beautiful disaster
She just needs someone to take her home
She just needs someone to take her home

I'm really depressed over Virginia Tech.

It really just shows that you are never safe in this world.

Feelings of safety are false emotions.

It just really sucks and it makes me really sad.

Why would someone do such a thing?

This world doesn't make sense to me.

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You Are Cameo

You are understanding and very empathetic. You don't tend to have acquaintances. Everyone is your friend. And all of your friends tend to be friends. You have a knack for bringing very different people together.

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Your Personality Cluster is Introverted Feeling

You are: Tolerant, flexible, and open to new ideas. A stickler for integrity and authenticity. Passionate about causes, beliefs, or politics. Likely to have many "best friends" from many walks of life

Passionate about politices???? I think not...lol

You Have Your Sarcastic Moments

While you're not sarcastic at all times, you definitely have a cynical edge. In your opinion, not all people are annoying. Some are dead! And although you do have your genuine moments, you can't help getting your zingers in. Some people might be a little hurt by your sarcasm, but it's more likely they think you're hilarious.

Your EQ is 107

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

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You Are 24% Control Freak

You have achieved the perfect balance of control and letting go. You tend to roll with whatever life brings, but you never get complacent.

You Are 4: The Individualist

You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself. You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable. You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt. Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

Delicate, timid, and attractive - sometimes you really do act like a bunny. You're very compassionate and protective of those you love, sometimes too protective. Your home is really your castle, and you make sure your home is comfortable and well furnished. You don't like to argue - and you prefer a quiet, peaceful life. You are most compatible with a Goat or a Pig.

You Are Chinese Food

Exotic yet ordinary. People think they've had enough of you, but they're back for more in an hour.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have low extroversion. You are quiet and reserved in most social situations. A low key, laid back lifestyle is important to you. You tend to bond slowly, over time, with one or two people. Conscientiousness: You have high conscientiousness. Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life. Most things in your life are organized and planned well. But you borderline on being a total perfectionist. Agreeableness: You have high agreeableness. You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly. Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone. You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance. Neuroticism: You have high neuroticism. It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed. You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully. You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is low. You're a pretty conservative person, and you favor what's socially acceptable. You think that change for novelty's sake is a very bad idea. While some may see this as boring, many see you as dependable and wise.

Wow, thats definatly me in a nutshell.

Anyways, thats all from me for now.

So yeah, On friday we had to put my cat down so i had a pretty crappy day that day. I woke up to two dogs attacking my cat on our front porch with both their mouths wraped around my poor kitty. I had to scare them away to avoid getting attacked myself and then see how badly patches was hurt. I brought him inside the doorway and he wouldnt get up. he was just laying there, spread eagle, unable to move his hind legs. I took him to the animal hospital and they said they would let me know when they find out anything. they had to take x-rays and found out that the dogs shattered one of his vertebrea. His hid legs were paralized and only had a 5-10% chance of survival. After debating for a good chunk of the day we decided to put him down to avoid more pain for him and to avoid the cost shooting throught the roof. It ended up being over $350 and if we would have waited til the next day to make a decision it would have been another like $100. I miss my kitty. He didn't deserve this, he was such a good cat and didn't deserve to die at the mouths of dogs. Dumb Fucking AssHole Dogs, I want to blow their brains out with a shootgun and watch them suffer how my cat suffered.

so, to all of you who dont want to hear about the election anymore...tough shit.

if things didnt go like someone wanted, and they were able to vote and they did, then they have all the right in the world to bitch about it.

i can understand if the person had the ability to vote and didnt, but if they didnt have to ability to or accually voted then they have every right to bitch about the results.

deal with it!

so yeah. havent updated in awhile so i thought i'd just pop in and say that i'm still alive. umm yeah..just at work not doing much...and thats about it.